The Last Straw

Im finally saying but I'M DONE!! Tuesday is my dad's birthday and I always send him a card from the kids and one from me. I caved and did send him something for Christmas because I just ccan't help myself. Once upon a time he was a good dad. I've been really thinking about it and have finally decided I'M DONE, REALLY DONE. I mentioned grandpa Alan to Corey the other day and he response was "Who's that, I have another grandpa?" When I explained that he's mommy's dad Corey then said "I thought you did have a dad, you only have grammy in KY and papa Jack". OUCH!!! Can someone please pull this knife out of my heart. So, Im not going to waste anymore time thinking about him and we will only focus on the people who actually care about us. My mom and step dad have been AWESOME grandparents to my babies, and thats what counts. They love my kids and my kids love them.

This is a HUGE hurdle for my, my dad's birthday will come and go and I will not allow myself to feel guilty. I KNOW he didn't feel a twinge of guilt when the kids birthday came and went without hearing from him not to mention the holidays.

So if you start to see me panic or get sad, please just tell me to GET OVER IT, THE MAN DOESN'T MATTER!! Wanna know made me finally see the light? This picture is the last time I have seen my dad YES THAT'S COREY ALMOST 4 MONTHS OLD!!!




Shawna says....